Sunday, March 28, 2010
i know i have not posted any entries for very long due to my hectic work life, but today is a very very different day.
got news in the morning from my mum. one of my maternal uncle just passed away yesterday. my mum broke down, she really really loved her little brother alot. i have no idea how to comfort her. i felt sad abt his death too, afterall, i was once close to this uncle when i was younger. i remember how he used to talk rubbish to me, telling me he was going to marry this very pretty newsbroadcaster back then. but as i grew up, things changed. i became mean to him at times when he bullied my mum. i knew i shouldnt have held a grudge against him, after all, he wasnt totally in his sane mind. even up to before he died, i never talked to him nicely nor look him properly in the face. and honestly speaking.... i miss the way he calls my name. but i know, all i can do now, is to pray for his soul to enter heaven.
it seems like bad things and bad luck has been following me for the past few weeks. i have bottled up much feelings and thoughts. today is where the dam breaks, and i will talk.
work life hasnt been smooth sailing. although i have to say the pay is REALLY high for a fresh grad like me who has no experience. got a shock when i received my pay check this month. next month would be even higher, trust me, due to this month's overtime reminbursements.
but the stress and politics in office is ramming down on someone like me who just wishes to learn and earn money for a living. there are much talks in the office, which i really want to ignore, but the more u act deaf and dumb, u realise the more things u end up knowing, whether you like it or not. things that doesnt concern me, i act deaf, things that concern me i act dumb. because there's no knowing who is speaking the truth, so i choose to lay low.
as a new comer in the finance and accounting industry as well as working life, i know it is not going to be easy. there are so much for me to learn. although it is tough, i will keep myself going. because, i know i will get stronger from all these.
altho these few weeks were kinda bad, but they haven entirely been a wreck. i was catching up with leonyie, one of my longest running good fren around. we were toasting to our 16years frenship yesterday at timbre, and oh boy, Jaggerbombs is goooood. although i lao-saied after that. it was supposed to help in digestion, what u expect. but all the talking and hanging out really brought us back to all the good old days we had in primary school. so glad we cleared up the air for all the miscommunications in the past and became close again.
i'm done with my ranting, so i'm gg to bathe and then head down to my uncle's wake now.
REST IN PEACE - MY BELOVED UNCLE, you will always be in my memory.
♥ Yuki & Kaname ♥
