Saturday, June 14, 2008
this is gg to be a damn long post. got alot of happy stuff to write =)
frens are precious jewels, really.
i bought leonie a pair of earrings, glad she liked the present i gave her. i forced her to wear it yesterday too lols. attended leonie's bday party, enjoyed myself soooo much. really fun, and had a very nice chat with long-time-no-see frens like meiying, daphne and annie. was never really close to them back then in st nix, but somehow last nite we cud hit it off very well. the food at the yatch club was good, loved the Gindara aka codfish. Jeremy was bz rubbishing away, daph doesnt seem to like the Gindara very much, so i got the biggest portion hehe =) for once Jeremy and i agreed that the fried mashed potato looked more like a fat fried maggot. Jeremy can be quite nice la, just tt at times u really wanna kill him for being irritating. speaking of irritating... dunno wat got into Pucao. he kept poking me and giving me comments on the way i played daidee zzzz. but den.. i have no luck in daidee last nite, only won one round. anw, dunno wat got into leonie and sam, both tot i'm into Jen Chang. Leonie even told Jen Chang tt i dressed up nicely for him zzzzzzz. *NO*!!! I dressed up nicely for her and the occasion, period! but nevertheless, he told me i looked good in wat i wore last nite.
anw i drove to leonie's party. i'm not a showoff or wat. but i have the tendency to compare myself with guys. i tink girls who can drive and have their own car are cool, cos they do not have to depend on their bf to drive them arnd or home. so when i tink i'm as good as guys, i feel really good. leonie told me her dad finds my driving good =) but leonie tinks likewise =( haha but at least samuel has confidence in me YEAH! he offered to be my passenger. poor samuel, blur me tot i did not lock my car, and he has to accompany me back to the carpark to see if i locked my car *sorry*.
we went singing at a karoke pub after dinner. lucky my throat was ok yest, so my singing was on form, did not embarass myself in public. actually our grp all can sing pretty well. unlike the singers from the other tables, some of them TOTALLY cannot make it. they shud just stay at home and sing in the bathroom, not torture the ears of the public. i may sound mean here, but if i were to hear tt guy singing "beautiful girls" again, i swear i will beat him up before he kills my eardrums. we stayed until 2am plus. i was so tired, i was speeding at 100km/h all the way home. got home from bugis within 10 mins. once i reached home, removed my makeup, i fell straight aslp.
parents are the best thing to happen to a child. my parents waited up for me, i felt so bad. selfish me only tot abt myself and having fun, totally forgot they were waiting for me, worried. but they didnt reproach me, tt made me feel worse. mum fell aslp on the sofa while waiting, when i tried to wake her up in the dark and with my long hair untied, she jumped up when she saw me and tot she saw a ghost. somehow after i broke up for such a long time, yesterday was the first time i said "I Love You", to my parents. in tt instance, i realised, love shud not be so shallowed or limited to just BGR.
one relationship, had happiness, had tears. but in the end, i learnt alot of things. in the past i disagreed with leonie's way of handling r/s or guys. cos conservative me, and as sandra said, i was living in my own world of fantasies. i never tot love could JUST HAPPEN! it doesnt take months or years, but simply a split second. the old me used to tink, girls and guys must go thru a standard "procedure" of wooing, dating, den attachment. it never occured to me, sometimes love can be silent. just a hug, or handholding, the instant when two hearts are linked togetha, you are in love. status is nothing, but i overemphasised too much on it in the past.
i love the way i am now. confident, beautiful(cos pple tell me i am & not self-declared) and independent. i feel everything can be achieved myself, the other half is just a complimentary in life. surprised with the way i talk to guys now, i dun stutter anymore, nor afraid to look them in the eye. i'm finally able to take them for who they are instead of constantly reminding myself tt i am a girl and they are guys, which created communication barriers for me in the past.
i'm so glad i've grown up.
♥ Yuki & Kaname ♥