Thursday, May 08, 2008
looked thru my BF notes today, abit blur. although i have done thorough revision for chapters 1 to 5, but tt was like 3-4 weeks ago? so now kinda forgot everything, esp after HMT has wasted so much of my memory space. hais. but at least i recapped everything for chapter 1-3 within today.
the BF revision gave me the feeling, the legacy(aka own notes) i left behind from my previous revisions are helping me recap faster than before. the first time it took me 4 days to complete 3 chapters, second time took me abt 2 days. today... took me 3 hours to fully grasp all the concepts. it seems like i'm trying to find the lost memory or rather the lost me from all the things i left behind. does that apply to my real life as well? i guess so.
trying to backtrack, and finding myself again.
first it was kenneth, now its tang hoe. well done... why isit all of them have the mindset tt i always have a guy in my life? tt is soooo wrong.
i dunno why i did what i've done. giving some guys the wrong impresions tt i'm interested in them when i'm not. perhaps what rae said was right. after wat we went thru... we either subconsciously become players, or on purpose. i just want everything to stop. i need to give my heart and brains a break. if u did what u yesterday 4 years back, i wud be soooo happy.
been getting aggressive in my entries, i guess its a result of mood swings and exam stress.
4 more days...
♥ Yuki & Kaname ♥