Tuesday, May 06, 2008
PM exam today was pretty smooth =) cud do every question, and managed to finish in time. many of my frens were saying they did not have enuff time to finish, despite knowing how to answer all the questions. i agree with them, cos i was rushing thru my last question within the last half an hour as well. my handwriting totally went out of shape. 2 hours is really crazily short. i guess a HD is secured for PM.
the best of all was... my eyecandy was sitting right beside me muahahaha =p abit distracted by him. *so cute*!!!
i kinda realised, being simple and being myself, is a kind of beauty too. why make myself so miserable? trying to stay beautiful all the time, is rathering tiring.
i really dun wanna be a player, i just want someone who can be as honest to me as i am to him. i dun want to play mind games. playing mind games with someone u love, doesnt tt defeat the purpose of loving when u shud be true to each other? i noe some pple mebbe luffing at my stupidity for not knowing how to play games and getting myself hurt. i just dun wanna play, not tt i dunno how. but come to tink of it, if only by resorting to such means can u make someone like tt stay, he is not worth my love either. if playing such games and making him stay is ur forte and goal, i say go ahead, but he will not be the one. at least not for me. wat i want is someone, who loves without reserve, and is true to his love. playing mind games itself, is a form of cheating, which i will not tolerate. but if pple force me up the wall... i guess my natural reaction will be to retaliate.
some things are better left unsaid, and stay buried deep in my past, away from my memory. unearthing them, may just simply bring out the aggressive and evil side of me. too many secrets, too many mixed feelings, brought out too many sides of me. eventually, my rationality has succumb to my natural instincts to defend and protect, and i ended up losing my inital true innocent self.
i'm not complicated, just somewhat confused and misunderstood.
3 exams done, one last to go... finance finance here i come. one last hurdle to pass.
♥ Yuki & Kaname ♥