Monday, October 08, 2007
after some contemplations.. i mustered my courage and checked the accounts results. i knew i gave my best shot, regardless of my results, i shud be proud of myself.
i really am proud of myself, for my hard work paid off =) i achieved HD. laughed till i cried when i saw my results.
watched a film collaborately produced by Korea and HK. the title is "My Wife is A Gangster 3". the comical scenes aside. the love tat was shared btwn the male and female protagonist despite their differences in language touched me. they din understand each other thru language, but felt each other's sincerity thru action. some pple may be good at talking, but who knows if they are true. tts why there is a saying "action speaks louder than words". i totally agree.
regarding my previous post, i have taken it down. i guess i was tinking too much, and worried too much. but i was glad, i din hafta do wat i was prepared to do. all these goes to show my mediocrity in handling r/s. i guess i hafta be fair to him, which i wasnt when i wrote my previous entry. my mental defences was so strong back den tt it took over me completely. because of my natural defences against guys, i've alrdy hurt 3 of them. and i nearly did it to him as well, which i'm glad i hadnt.
honestly, i enjoyed myself being with him on saturday. and i hafta admit, there was a moment he made my heart beat faster and slower simultaneously. he really is a perfect bf, looks, body plus all that gentleman-ness and caring-ness, is what every girl asks for. tts why i really wonder of all girls, why he chose me?
pardon me for having doubts. for someone like me, who has experienced so much failure in love, really cant fathom wat he sees in me. now... i just want to deal with my exams wholeheartedly. the rest, i'll leave it to time to unravel if there ever will be a future btwn me and him.
♥ Yuki & Kaname ♥