Saturday, February 10, 2007
Woke up at 12pm today, was reluctant to get out of bed. Reluctant to return to reality.. Reality hurts, guess i tot too much, jumping to conclusions even before i affirm 'tats' a reality. But tts jus the way i am. Afraid to face reality, afraid to find out the truth behind my doubts, afraid to confirm tt my fears has bcome reality. I'm weak..despite the strong front i put up. Perhaps my strong defence further stresses the fact that i need protection, security...badly.
Went lunch with my parents at Orchard East Ocean Restaurant. Various delicacies were served to me, but none cud whet my appettite. Felt guilty towards the plate of gooseliver i had, guess i cudnt fully enjoy its taste with my mental state back then. My dad complained tt the waitress was biased, serving me the largest piece of gooseliver among the 3 of us.
Later we shopped around in Orchard road, hopin tt the leisure walk can aid in digestion. Mum and i each bought a bottle of perfume. Mum bought Tommy Girl10, while i struggled btwn the choice of Estee Lauder Pleasure or Tommy Hill All Star. In the end i made my pick, i bought Estee Lauder Pleasure. Guess the shoppin cheered me up a lil. Damnit, i shud stop spending money on all these luxury items. I've spent alot on girl's stuff, guess i shud exercise some discipline and be more frugal. I've worked before, i shud understand the fact tt money is hard earned. Sorry Dad...
♥ Yuki & Kaname ♥
